Life . . . Nobody get's out alive . .
No, I'm not a pessimist. Them's just the facts.
John had some things come up in his world that took priority (in his mind) over getting further testing done. He's supposed to get a fasting glucose test, an ultra sound and Hepatitis test. He doesn't have to have a set appointment for that I guess, and he will probably be getting it done some time tomorrow or Monday. It's a wait and see game I guess. But according to him he's changed his diet significantly and has not had another low blood sugar type episode again . . . EXCEPT for last night. He's also pretty proud to tell me that he's lost 4 lbs! Which is fantastic.
Me . . . still waiting. I've discovered that I HATE taking showers . . .
"Why?" you may ask. Well for 2 reasons
1. Cuz with each shower I am losing a handful of hair, and it's making me crazy. I try to brush through it very carefully, but it just keeps coming out. ARGH! I am attributing it to a fairly common condition that affects people 2 - 4 Months after a major stress in their lives. With Destany dying in June & Tony dying in July . . . I guess it is inevitable. But still . . . ARGH!
2. The shower is where I would do a self breast exam, and the only thing that is changing is the hard lump is harder and more easily detected. I'm guessing about 3-4 CM or "grape sized".
I await confirmation from the state of MN that they are working on my MNCare application so that I can go to the doctor and get this THING taken care of . . .
So while I wait . . . I google. I went through a few days of the strange sensation over and over again of the feeling that a nursing mother gets when her "Milk let's down". Now it only happens once in a while. Breasts are tender (hormones??) I believe I'm post menopausal . . . so I don't know about hormones. I read somewhere in my google search that "breast cancer doesn't hurt", then read in another place "Yes it does, just depends on who you talk to". The good news is . . . I see NO correlation between Hair Loss & Breast Cancer :-) Till you add in Chemotherapy. (Maybe God's just getting me used to the idea." ????)
I should just UN-google for a while.